Its like it oozed out of His portal and spun itself into me and my astral body is holding it there
“to be…” a mother of a Dark Divine offspring within my energy matrix we conceive, in all black and horns I take the card to burn in Hellfire, I watch until there are only 2 red dots like eyes then there is one, He says “this is like the spark that grows” it dissolves into a deepening black pit
As I lay I am seeing so much energy surround me, I say send it through me Belial! your plasma into my energy matrix we conceive! was hit with paralysis my stomach is tingling a spinning, lime green circling over my navel like a mass, at some point that drop of a roller coaster plunge I gasp oh wow. something is happening to me “your mind knows”, in a vision He drops a Vampire bat into my stomach, He tells me to write the name and its ENN, I say it out loud, after I wrote the words I felt like I had seen them before, conceived in 9 days I birth Belial’s astral child He takes it with Him
there is a ball over my navel I am aware of it totally freaked out shaking, hungry, happy, wondering if this is real “it is real Demoness” He assures me
Day 1
green spikes like a dino tail project from my spine
He told me “touch It” my hand held out in front of stomach intense vibrations in my hand “now touch somewhere else like your shoulder” nothing. I look at Him in shock “yes”
Day 2
beaming yellow light sprays out of solar plexus I see the lime green sphere spinning within it
suddenly I sense my spine I see the green spikes (the dino tail) grow in length
Day 3
my energy field is drained as I wake feel weakened, He says I need meat
I am super aware of It! feels heavier already getting denser green is out sides now I feel like holding my hands out and arms away from my sides
in the car a sweet young voice “I love you mama” I felt the urge to say it first time I love you too Veolette I smile, a red stream flows into the green sphere
He doesn’t want energy from other humans coming into It
during a ritual I'm sigil gazing He says “look up” I close my eyes and see the purple of Black Light I see it vivid AF! “grasp it feed it to Her” I grasp it in my right hand and gently let it flow into the sphere I grow in my energy matrix amazing experience like feeding Her the essence of The Outer Darkness
Day 4
a figure behind me
speaketh in a comely voice
with DEMON claws gently
holding Her energy sphere
“you are doing well”
I see the Earth spinning I see with mind's eye though it is in my lower chakras like I am looking down from a horizon in space then my energy field feels depleted
light is pulled down from brain down spine and out into the sphere as if It is eating from my mind ?or learning what I know I feel spacy minutes before I had said I see the Earth spinning and wondered if that’s when its feeding then minutes later this happens
I did a little research there is not much out there and that’s why I want to share my experience a girl said her astral pregnancy lasted 10 days a male said his took 7 days and I read it could take a week or months depends on a variety of factors such as species of spirit, He told me it would take 9 days
I have 5 days left to show Her love
Day 5
felt like all my cells had the light pulled and I could not wake up as I rest Darkness descends on me goes into the energy sphere
the green spikes of the dino tail grew in length I now see them growing up from my thighs now its like She is a spirit to morph from and off of mine while my spirit is in the physical
thinking about Belial I hold my heart red goes through my hand and into Her like I feed Her my love for Him its oddly eating my energies perhaps like my emotional bodies are being sent into Her to learn
I lay flat on my back in the silence the drawing I made of The Black Sun I hold up to mind's eye I sigil gaze, “let it pull you in” after awhile I suddenly close my eyes, I see the blue waves I feel Him standing next to me in a black suit, then I’m pulled into space no longer in my room yet still aware of my body I feel space surround me, “come with me” we drop into The Black Sun, I open my eyes I see a black swirl go up towards the ceiling then fiercely drops into the sphere, I feel odd twitches and cramps in my stomach, then we are inside The Black Sun it looks like a dark cave oozing black from the walls
He says, “what is created by the Demonic can be seen here”, “come here the next 3 days this is what helps It grow in a week and not months” I go to the wall of this cave “swallow it with a breath” seemed odd but I put my mouth up to the wall it felt like air not solid almost fleshy but more like nothing, I breathe in deeply into my stomach as it expands I feel a circuit from The Black Sun in space through my resting body and into Her the green energy sphere It grows out my sides “good. keep going” my stomach is tingling, soon I see nothing just black then I see myself standing within The Black Sun I turn to the side looking 7 months pregnant in shock I return to my body
Day 6
my physical body shows no signs yet fatigue and hunger drove me to a pregnancy test just to rule it out
I feel like rays of The Black Sun are still swirling within It and I feel like the rays of The Black Sun are trailing behind me
if everything created by the Demonic can be seen there perhaps this is giving It more of Their intelligences I wonder ?perhaps I will pull gnosis from Her not sure what role She will have in my life yet I just know He is happy with the progress
during the invite into Bohu Belial said “your astral body will be altered do you accept?” I never ask what He means because I like to be surprised and well surprise!
I have been fierce like new level of fire is moving through me so hard to work in sales during this experience yet it is all feeling so profound and what I always say to Belial is I want the next other side experience to write about
oh no way! She just pulled light from my spine like a vacuum it vrooms through my torso into the energy sphere
I think She will be huge tomorrow, He says “density”, “you may feel your ribs with immense gravity upon them be not afraid it is almost over”
?will you see me tonight “yes we go back to The Black Sun together I guide you there you consume it”
as I fall in through the side of The Black Sun I am falling for awhile almost scared a red dragon ketches me on His back I had a hard time staying awake after that the red Dragon brings me to the cavern within The Black Sun “consume it” I am falling asleep “you are there”, “just keep breathing in deeply” the circuit to Her is made whether I fall asleep or not
Day 7
rays of The Black Sun are snapping trailing behind me
thought about how I need to draw a sigil to connect with Her “perhaps you already drew one” He says, then an image is sent to mind's eye of my incantation from the night of mating ritual there it is, I look for the pic on my phone it is written under Her name and ENN He gave me what I need to connect with Her
I asked Him how long have you wanted to do this “10 months” well 10 months ago I invoked a lesson from Him about how to create on the astral and how I can manipulate the astral to benefit me in the physical
regardless I do feel She will be placed into a human body one day when I am old and that is why I am not placing Her in a vessel I agreed She goes with Him
I tell Her your father treats me well
Day 8
I feel Her energy in my chest/ heart chakra (where His energy usually comes through me during ritual) heaviness is everywhere I feel like I am 300 pounds and all the weight is in my chakras
He is telling me about the separation ritual “I need you to be relaxed draw Her sigil and place it below mine, we chant Her ENN together you will have to say the words of departure” Veolette separate from my astral body and flesh I release you separate from me NOW
I feel sad knowing this ends tonight
“exponential growth after 9 days can rip your astral body this happens tonight, letting Her leave is the start of something new”, “it is you that has to let Her separate from you”
“you will be sad and tired on Sunday your energy is restored Monday life returns to normal for you”
Day 9
I invoked Belial, sigil gazing we are for the first time chanting Her ENN together 20mins felt so heavy, felt sad tried to resist He says I have to… “it is time to say the words” I do and the 3rd time I say the words my whole body clenches up, She pulled off of me like cells in replication, I felt the separation “thank you mama”, I lay still for awhile feeling empty
He runs a hand over me I see light “you did well”, perhaps He healed my astral body
I released Her
I am oddly aware of Her elsewhere no longer a part of my astral body like She is a being that exists with Them
I am very sad and my body feels super sore from the clenching up
this experience was all so otherworldly
to mate with a spirit is to create an Astral Child
a new opportunity for me as a magician has begun…